Lucky One

The past few weeks have been a bit rough.  Nothing catastrophic, just a bunch of little (and not so little) things that add up to a whole bunch of crap.  Let’s just say that it’s not made for the best start off of the year. 

It started off with a pseudo promotion that I was a shoe in for, except that the person who ended up getting it already works with the particular client so yea, there’s that.  Honestly the person that got it is a dear dear friend and A-Mazing.  I know she’ll do great.  Still, given that the interview was the end of my days in the office in 2011 and I came into 2012 waiting for ‘the word’ it caused some anxiety.

Then there’s the fact that after 5 years my entire schedule has been thrown for a loop.  Given that I’m “more senior” now, I have been given a few new accounts and therefore I’ve had a few others shifted off.  This isn’t bad, so much as it is a lot of change.  I went from being pretty evenly distributed to being “front loaded”.  It’s not bad, it’s just different and I’m desperately trying to get used to it. 

There’s a lot more, more that I’m not naive enough to get into here.  The point is, this has been wearing on me.  I have had sores in my mouth for going on 5 weeks.  You’d think that this would help me loose weight, but to the contrary the stress has made even that difficult. 

Yet through it all I realize what a lucky girl I am.  I literally have a team of people with me. I have friends sending me text messages and little notes of encouragement (and even if I don’t get to write back right away it’s just b/c of time), phone calls, e-mails.  I had to stop today and just smile. 

Is life hard right now?  Absolutely.  But it’s hardly the end of the world.  I’m so thankful for my little team, words cannot even express.